Super Mom, Super busy Mom , Super guilty Mom.

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IMG_33My daughters favorite nursery rhyme is stuck in my head.  I’m softly humming the tune. I forgot one of the lines, but I remember the tune. I’m packing my evening dresses in my suitcase.  When traveling to gigs I always carry my new dresses in a suit bag, but when I go home, I roll them up and pack them next to my shoes and underwear in my suitcase.  The gig is done.  Finished.  Successful.

1.2.3.4 hours until I board my flight to CT. HOME. I am filled with emotion. I can not wait to be with my family.  I hate saying it; but I am a working mom.  I love working. I love my children. I am a working mom.  2 flights took me away from home this week for work.  Thats a lot.  a Lot of flying and a lot of time away from my babies.  I have 2.

I’m home. It’s morning.  Everything is ready.  Lunch-boxes, clean linen, clean nappy changing area, toys are sorted, and the toast is made. To do lists for school and medicine is packed. “ Good mom “,  I tell myself. I’m leaving home for a week to work on the most amazing projects. Bad mom?, I think …you should have stayed at home with the kids.

My mind wonders to when I was a child and I wanted mommy and daddy to stay home.  “ Don’t go to work”, I would say.  They made it clear; if they don’t t go to work, We can’t have a family car… I can’t have clothes, and we won’t have food.  They would leave for work.  Jobs that they worked hard for and were good at. They inspire me.

The house wakes up.  Monday feels like Sunday feels like Tuesday.  They all start the same.  I love how they start.  I meet my toddler in the corridor and present her her options like a flight attendant, “ tea or milk?” …She asks for “ bed” instead. That means we get back into bed to cuddle for a few minutes.  The kettle is warm.  I am a good mom.  After dropping her off at play-school today, I will leave for the airport.  I leave for work. I love my work. Should I stay at home with the kids?

I make another list.  One for the au pair. “ Please wash your hands when you arrive. Thanks for everything, love Elana “.  My toddlers swimming bag is packed for Tuesday, I change the nappy bin liners and move the frozen breastmilk to the front of the freezer so that it’s visible.  2 babies.  a Toddler and a baby.  They are so small.   I write in the communal house diary … “ Garden service arrives on Wednesday and a delivery will come for me Thursday afternoon.  I’ve made a drs appointment on Wednesday in case one of the babies are sick. 10:40 am”.   I take a deep breath. I am a good mom.

“You are a super Mom”  reads a Facebook comment.  That’s who I am?  I am super busy and super guilty.  “How do you do what you do” asks my Client…. I don’t know.

Please be proud of Mommy, I am working on TV this week.  Mommy is on a flight.  I will be home soon, to give you “tea”, “milk” and “bed”

x

14 Comments

14 Comments on Super Mom, Super busy Mom , Super guilty Mom.

  1. Elana
    July 5, 2017 at 5:05 am (3 months ago)

    Thanks Junay.
    Knowing what I know about you, you inspire me. You go out of your way for your little one. We keep going. Thanks for your support.
    Big hug.
    Elana
    x

  2. Elana
    July 5, 2017 at 5:04 am (3 months ago)

    Wow Annaline
    15 months apart. jip! You know the juggle is real !! :)
    Thanks so much. You are a great mom tooooo!
    Elana

  3. Elana
    July 5, 2017 at 5:02 am (3 months ago)

    Thank you Haroldene
    I would love to pick up a copy of your book. Thanks for being an inspiration and believing that we can do it all, cause we CAN.

    Thanks so much
    Elana

  4. Elana
    July 5, 2017 at 4:59 am (3 months ago)

    Hey Bailey Bailsey Bob.
    The last time you were on ChocolateFace, your little pudding wasn’t born yet. Now you are a mamma. What a privilege.
    Congrats again. What an amazing time. I miss being pregnant, and thank God, I love my babies so so much. I pray for success, Blessings and so much protection over your little family. Once little G can sit, we do playdates! yeaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

  5. Elana
    July 5, 2017 at 4:57 am (3 months ago)

    Thanks Olga.
    Well, you are going to have to start watching KykNET now. ( Smiley face)
    Have a stunning day.
    Elana

  6. Elana
    July 5, 2017 at 4:56 am (3 months ago)

    Thanks Lee-Ann
    We try, we do.
    Elana
    x

  7. Elana
    July 5, 2017 at 4:56 am (3 months ago)

    Dear Sharon. Thanks so much. Appreciate your message. Hope you are surrounded by amazing people too.
    Have a good week.
    Elana x

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    Sharon Hess
    June 13, 2017 at 11:31 am (3 months ago)

    Just the mere fact that you feel guilty about your two babies – tells a lot about the person you are!
    You are doing great. You ARE great!
    And thank God that you have people in your life, that can assist eg… your hubbie, your au pair, family, etc.
    Your girls will be so proud of their mom one day.
    I salute you
    xxx

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    Lee-Ann Oelofse
    June 11, 2017 at 4:10 pm (3 months ago)

    You are an amazing mom <3

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    Olga Wasley
    June 11, 2017 at 3:59 pm (3 months ago)

    I think you’re a great mom and have two very lucky babies to have such a well balanced mommy!! I miss you on Expresso though… You wit is awesome!!
    Xxx

  11. bailey@baileyschneider.co.za'
    Bailey Schneider
    June 11, 2017 at 3:46 pm (3 months ago)

    I must admit, reading this makes me know that I’m not the only one feeling this way and my baby boy isn’t even in the world yet!! I give my all to what I do, I know no half measures, so how am I going to give my all to my career I love so much and give my all to a baby boy I cannot wait to meet in the next few days? I already have guilt and he’s not even here yet – guilty for being on bed rest and not working… guilty for working and not being on bed rest and possibly endangering my pregnancy!! I think the only way is to know we are doing the best we can and this mantra: Mom, you are enough! <3 Big loves xxxx

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    Haroldene Tshienda
    June 11, 2017 at 3:37 pm (3 months ago)

    I love reading your blog. I relate to you 100%. I do respect moms who prefer to be at home full time. However it’s great and possible to multi task. We as women are blessed with amazing and undeniable gifts and we can proudly achieve our personal goals; be a mother; wife; daughter; sister; friend and business woman. Good luck with your plans. My 4th book entitled A Woman’s World explains in detail the roles of a woman in today’s society…much love; admiration and respect. God bless.

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    Annaline Hendrickse
    June 11, 2017 at 3:20 pm (3 months ago)

    I loved reading your blog. Reminds me of when I had to babies, 15 months apart and was a full time nurse. Cherish the moments you have with them. You are a great Mom. xxx

  14. Junaylange@gmail.com'
    Junay
    June 11, 2017 at 3:20 pm (3 months ago)

    And as long as you are thinking about all this, you are the best mom you cam be and that your kids can have. Thanks for sharing yourself with us through your blog and your work. ×××

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